please just don't play with me, my paper heart will bleed. [November 10, 2009] it_rains_stars maybe i misread. but i've always been good at reading. and if i'm not misreading then i'm not sure what i want. i need to change my ways. i need to stop running away. i'm so good at escaping. i don't know who is playing who. reply

no one will like this entry besides us<3 and probably kelsey [November 10, 2009] allthose_ships i just need to remember this conversation. because this is the cheryl that i miss <3         ( _________ ) reply

[November 10, 2009] leeeighaaa i was doing good.. not so much anymore when i need to talk to someone about anything who do i think of first? ham ofcoarse. can i talk to him? ofcoarse not, he's trying to pick up other girls atm. why i put myself in these situations i dont know, it's because i'm selfish but at the same time i'm not. the people i care about more than myself are so few that they don't even notice it. ALAN CAR YOU MOTHA FUCKA! IF YOU'RE READING THIS YOU'RE A BEAUTIFUL PERSON! and eye luv yew bff<3 anyways... i feel like waiting would lead to something good.. i can do that i sopose. honestly you're not worth it but you really are. why am i even talking about this? this is a good situation to be in, if youre not like me and care for one more than few. oh wait... things just got better :P for real, life is a weird unexplainable thing. reply

[November 10, 2009] digitallysecure things that happen: - listening to kevin devine "this is the worst song i have ever heard, how can you listen to this?" - saw frisbee house boy from afar, my hickies are gone, his aren't. - was deferred from blood donation. hating life ensues "don't get discouraged!" - threatened bridget by telling her i would water her cactus. - didn't drop calc i can't stop listening to this: the weekend is almost here, right? reply

[November 10, 2009] leeeighaaa have you ever been high as fuck? reply

all your insides fall to pieces [November 10, 2009] pennylanetsuch “If you take someone's thoughts and feelings away, bit by bit, consistently, then they have nothing left, except some gritty, gnawing, shitty little instinct, down there, somewhere, worming round the gut, but so far down, so hidden, it’s impossible to find. Imagine, if you will, a worldwide conspiracy to deny the existence of the color yellow, and whenever you saw yellow they told you no, that isn’t yellow, what the fuck’s yellow? Eventually, whenever you saw yellow, you would say: That isn’t yellow, course it isn’t, blue or green or purple, or… you’d say it, yes it is, it’s yellow, and become increasingly hysterical, and then go quite berserk.” David Edgar, Mary Barnes reply

[November 10, 2009] littleteeeth [ mood | chipper ] [ music | cbc news ] lj cuts can lick my balls, i'm too lazy right now.   3/ read reply

ohh november. [November 10, 2009] color_the_city i just want this week to be over. i want this college application process to be over. ugh, i just want to do everything right. i feel so stressed and inadequate. or however you spell it. reply

thoughts without a name. [November 10, 2009] je_suis_humain   i will never forget watching him, watching him kick his only son in the head, rocking the foundation of our house, spilling naked truths up the chimney, which clogged up the sky. pollution, acid rain, sulfur streets. the terror of the devil rips at the unconscious lobe of one unconscious Christian, i will never forget god kicking him in the head, god kicking him in the head, rocking the foundation of the earth, sending out fictional psalms through the burnt roof. i cannot forget the shrill sound of the sun rising in the morning, i will not forget the story of some existence creating the earth, creating the earth in seven days, while i bought soup at the 7 11 just for me to eat, just for me to eat, pollution, acid rain, sulfur streets. i will not forget the Mississippi blues howling through the murky water down south, down south while motherless children roamed the streets. if the devil called my name, i wouldn't retreat, if the holy spirit saved my name, i wouldn't bow at his feet, i will never forget watching her fall, watching her fall like dead leaves. i raked up the remains but no one will ever remember their names. pollution, acid rain, sulfur streets. i cannot forget the silent sound of his departure, the silent sound of his departure, as his courage raged through us, while i sat in my bedroom listening to the toll bell call. pollution, acid rain, sulfur streets. reply

[November 09, 2009] leeeighaaa has anyone else brushed your teeth for you? me- yes! reply

[November 09, 2009] kkayleee So im kinda getting discouraged with this school thing, the only thing i have ever wanted to do was medicine. I cant picture myself anywhere besides in a hospital. and now that my grades aren't doing so good i'm not sure  if that is going to be possible. I don't understand why im suck so much. but im trying to think of something besides medcine and theres nothing im interested in. I dont want to be one of those people who work for money, i want to work because i love doing it. i want to be happy with my job and im scared to death that its not gonna happen. the all american rejects aways make me happy though haha. "ill keep you my dirty little secret don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret my dirty little secret" reply

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[November 08, 2009] digitallysecure i find it funny knowing there is a boy named shawn that lives on central campus walking around with hickies on his neck due to my lack of concern for composure last night. oh, frisbee house, why must you always refill my cup with beer 4/ read reply

[November 08, 2009] allthose_ships sometimes i think it's crazy how intense your emotions can be in dreams, which reminds me of the science of sleep when he says, 'in dreams emotions can be overwhelming.' also, i think it's funny how much i act like myself when i dream. i don't know if that makes sense to anybody else. like, i think the same things i do in real life. it's hard to explain without giving examples, but i'll keep those to myself. reply

[November 08, 2009] it_rains_stars also, chance that i'm currently carring H1N1 influenza at the moment increased by like 100% tonight. a guy i drove to connecticut who was fine when we left, didn't feel so great today and went to albany med and they told him he has it. which isn't a huge suprise because his roommate had it, though they did make him stay in his room. but i spent four hours this weekend in an enclosed car with him and then also spent almost every waking moment in his presence though generally at least one person away from him. so yeah. we'll see. though unfortunately it seems i have a cough and my head is killing me. and here i am, the chair of operation immunization, possibly getting the flu. reply

[November 08, 2009] it_rains_stars interesting thing i learned this weekend in connecticut: there is not a single grocery store within the city of Hartford, which is the capitol of connecticut. reply

[November 08, 2009] brownpolyester i do not like Times New Roman but i like the way this looks. obviously i am not getting this any time soon but it is something i have been wanting for such a long time and i have finally decided on this placement. i will be able to hide it at work with cardigans and possibly 3/4 length tops so that is perfect. especially because it'll be visible when i want it to be, and i'll be able to read it at any time. reply

[November 08, 2009] blackeyedsuzy FREDONIA IN THE FALL is the best time of year!!! ( I haven't posted photos in a long time! ) reply

wishlist. [November 08, 2009] color_the_city the following cut contains what would be my dream christmas. :) ( christmas list! ) 2/ read reply

[November 08, 2009] kiki_bird hmm so interesting comment on my last post. p.s. if you don't like what i have to say, don't read and please don't comment.  it's childish. thanks. reply

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